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  • Опубликовано: 10 июл 2018
  • This is a long one....but it all needed to be said. I hope this video helps anyone that's going through something similar, and to know that you're not alone. I also hope this video educates anyone who doesn't know how pregnancy questions could affect someone who's dealt or dealing with a stillbirth, miscarriages, infertility & any other pregnancy complications.
    Extending all my love to all of those who are suffering. Know that I'm here with you ❤️
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  • Aileen Matos
    Aileen Matos 6 дней назад

    Your amazing desi 😭💜 keeping you and Steven in my prayers 🙏🏾🙏🏾

  • sharmin hossain mitul
    sharmin hossain mitul 6 дней назад

    I m praying for you....that someday you r going to be pregnant and a good nice mom

  • Lindsay Sper
    Lindsay Sper 6 дней назад

    Also, you should look in to vaginal steaming

  • Kentessa4eva
    Kentessa4eva 6 дней назад

    I have struggled too... for many years and I experienced a miscarriage 3 years ago and I am still grieving. I chose to allow the miscarriage to happen naturally which resulted in 1 month of pain and an emergency vacuum procedure as all the tissue did not pass. My husband was not understanding of the effect of all this on me and I truly felt alone when all this happened. He would act as if I was never pregnant and I was being over-dramatic. I have felt so much pressure
    to live up to others expectations of having kids and I get very upset when people pry and start with the "when are you having children" questions. Most ask despite knowing about my miscarriage and our problem conceiving.... Lately, I dunno what it is but I am afraid to even try again knowing my husband may probably be unsupportive and I will be on miscarriage watch and bed rest. So many years have passed without another pregnancy happening that I have gone back on the pill. This whole experience has now made me question if I am meant and if I still want children.

  • Marilynn Martinez
    Marilynn Martinez 6 дней назад

    Des, it’s been years since I’ve actually had time to sit down a see a video of yours! I’ve always love how down to earth and have always been drawn to your energy. I guess only people who have been through miscarriage really understands how saddening it is. In a lot of your videos I always noticed that there was always a little sadness in your eyes and i knew it due to your miscarriage. What people don’t see it’s that going through something like that, it changes people. Not because you want it that way, but a little of you dies with each disappointment. Im glad you were brave enough to speak about this sensitive subject and let our your thoughts and feelings. Mark my words, you will have a family. Just be patient and don’t lose faith. Good things happen with the time is right. Sending so much wellness to you. 2019 will be YOUR year✨

  • JULISSACOBO
    JULISSACOBO 9 дней назад

    doll...... try God I was once you, but I prayed and cried to God like and a baby and now I am mommy of awesome boy he is now 15 and there not a day that goes by were I am not thankful for my son....trust me GOD is awesome !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • Katia Contreras
    Katia Contreras 10 дней назад

    Thank you for making this Desi, you are so strong and you will be an amazing mother one day. As will I and everyone who is struggling in silence, God is with us he knows when the time is right. ❤️

  • DesanaRose
    DesanaRose 10 дней назад

    I'm literally living this right now😞😢. I'm so discouraged and sad. Maybe I needed to see this. Praying you and I both.

  • Aubree Ryan
    Aubree Ryan 10 дней назад

    I don’t know how many times I can say thank you for making this video. Thank you thank you thank you. I know it’s such a hard thing to talk about because I’m there right now going through it and all I can say is thank you. I needed this.

  • Natalie Taylor
    Natalie Taylor 10 дней назад

    You are so brave and so courageous. Thank you for making this video. Keep trusting in Gods plan for you and Steven. I pray he would bless you and you would feel comfort through this xx

  • Crystal Lim
    Crystal Lim 10 дней назад

    If you can't get pregnant, it doesn't mean you can't have a family - there's always surrogacy or adoption as options as well

  • Tracy Zheng Brooks
    Tracy Zheng Brooks 11 дней назад

    Desi, I have been watching your videos for years and this is by far the closest I feel with you. Me and my husband have been together for 8 yrs now and still no kids. It’s so hard when people or family to ask if you were going to kids or not. To the point I just start telling people that I don’t want kids. I think that is my way of protecting myself from feeling depressed about it. But deep down I really do. Now I just just tell myself it will come when God thinks im ready. Don’t feel pressured that you have to announce anything to the internet. Keep it light and stress free is the most important thing. :)

  • TheLittle599
    TheLittle599 12 дней назад

    May Jehovah God continue to bless you my prayers are with you you can check Justin and Rachelle channel or Phil and Alex channel you have 2 different points of view and out comes keep going to the doctors and do every test you have to it will all work out

  • Reshma Patel
    Reshma Patel 12 дней назад

    Dear God bless this lovely beautiful soul with a child - there's always a reason behind everything that happens Desi - stay positive and if having a child is the best for your highest good, your higher self than God will never keep it from you... Just keep the faith that when the time is right it will happen. God keeps you from certain things as we all have experiences we need to go through. Staying positive and having faith can turn anything around. Ask for it and then release all fears and just expect - trust me it works being this way and you can truly have all that you want...
    God bless you and your partner, I wish you all that you desire xxx

  • Angy Jimenez
    Angy Jimenez 12 дней назад

    I know it’s not for everyone but you should really consider getting a surrogate i am a surrogate going on my second time doing this and the happiness the couples feel when they see the baby it’s so rewarding we give the gift of Life to couples that can’t have kids and the baby would still be 100% yours

  • Makeupbyyaya
    Makeupbyyaya 13 дней назад

    😭😭😭 God will give you all the desires of your heart Desi.. ♥️♥️♥️ God’s time is always perfect.

  • Stephanie De La Cruz
    Stephanie De La Cruz 13 дней назад

    I have so much respect for you for making this video Desi, you are so brave for putting this out in public because you definitely did not have to. I will keep you and Steven in my prayers so that he sends that sweet angel your way. Stay strong and positive Desi, God has a plan for everyone. ❤️ ilysm

  • Siayonna Chhan
    Siayonna Chhan 14 дней назад

    The day you uploaded this video, I was getting ready and I remember refreshing RUclip to see new uploads and this one popped up. I was so excited because I thought it was another tutorial, vlog, or something, until I read the title.. and I remember my heart hurting for you. Now I’m watching this video again because I found out today I’m going through a miscarriage and watching/ listening to you doesn’t make me feel alone ): I pray that you & I become mommy’s one day!!

  • Lynn Lattouf
    Lynn Lattouf 16 дней назад

    I will pray for you and Steven Desi. Please don't be nervous, it sometimes takes decades to be blessed with a child. Don't give up!

  • Shararah Rayen
    Shararah Rayen 17 дней назад

    girl you will have a beautiful child and many more lol

  • Adriana Loor
    Adriana Loor 17 дней назад

    This broke my heart😔wishing you the best

  • Karolina perez perez
    Karolina perez perez 18 дней назад

    Oh my dear Desi, I love u so much you have no idea .... thank u for being strong, even if you don’t realize it ❤️

  • Jessica Valencia
    Jessica Valencia 21 день назад

    Desi,
    I personally dont want children in my lifetime (at the moment) but seeing you go through and talk about this absolutely breaks my heart. I forget that some people really do want to want children and want that whole life they bring into your own....i have no words other than you are a very strong person w/ an even stronger following of people that love you an support you and genuinely want to see you achieve EVERYTHING you want in life. Your day will come some way some how. I pray God shows you in time why he has made you wait so long and that when it does happen you will be so happy and so blessed and so appreciative of the life you will bring into this world. I can only imagine the love and joy you and Steven will have one day. Just keep your head up , let God and the universe take the wheel and allow the blessing to come to you. I love you desi as well as ALL your followers, keep up your good work love

  • Sydra Mars
    Sydra Mars 21 день назад

    I am here from a LogicalHarmony video. Tashina mentioned you in ref to how inappropriate it is to ask if one is pregnant. And yea, it’s a SUPER rude question to ask and I wish people would just stop 🛑 and think of the impact their words might have. Just stop it everyone!!!! I thank you 🙏 so much for your raw honesty and see how much pain this causes you. My wish for anyone going through a similar situation, is to be super kind to yourselves and don’t put so much pressure on yourselves about giving the audience good news or to tell your mom she’s going to be a grandma, etc. You are so much more than just being able to give birth. I hope you can take a minute and realize what a truly amazing, loving and caring person you are for even making this video 💗Take time to focus on your own needs and screw anyone else who has anything mean to say. 💜 💜 💜 💜 💜

  • Sarahi Solis
    Sarahi Solis 22 дня назад

    I’m praying for you and Sven. Desi you WILL have your family. Not before, not later, it’ll be when God seems it to be the right timing ❤️ don’t worry about disappointment, you can’t disappoint anyone. Just focus on your and your well being. Mental and Physical health is all. Please don’t worry about us we love you and know there are thousands of people who love you praying for you and sven.

  • Jilllian Castro
    Jilllian Castro 23 дня назад

    Thank you for your courage to talk about this. I am going through it... I’m telling you, it’s like you’re taking the words right from my mind and mouth. The monthly feelings of any little change or twinge in my belly are straight torture. I read about how women who really want to be pregnant can trick their bodies into feeling pregnant because they want it so bad, and I feel like that’s what I go through every month. It’s so bad, that I have to take a pregnancy test a couple times so that my brain can be freed from the thinking about it as much and my body can move on. I had one pregnancy and 1 “missed miscarriage.” HATE when people ask when am I going to have kids, makes me get so emotional, you’re right people shouldn’t ask this. I feel for you girl, and I wish that all your dreams come true for you... thanks for assuring me and so many like me that we are not alone and it’s good to talk about these things. By the way, I just came across a couple of your makeup videos and became a fan immediately, thank you for your videos!

  • Anna Marija
    Anna Marija 26 дней назад

    you're a true angel, stay strong lovely!!

  • Amber Black
    Amber Black 28 дней назад

    Thank you for sharing your story. I am only 25 and my mom has had several miscarriages in her life including my twin and as I am progressing into a very serious relationship and a stage in my life where pregnancy is the next step I'm terrified. I don't think I've ever admitted it to anyone before but my body hasn't followed the "normal/typical" steps to womanhood which makes me afraid that when it is time and I try I may not be able to have kids. I pray that you will one day be blessed with children and I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to share. We love you Desi 💕💕💕💕

  • lejoy
    lejoy 28 дней назад

    This was so brave of you.Putting yourself out there on social media i'm sure isn't the easiest thing no matter how long you've done it.Thank you for sharing all of this this was an informative video. I really hope you and steven eventually grow a little family. :)

  • kelly White
    kelly White 28 дней назад

    May God Bless you 💜

  • Meghan Mills
    Meghan Mills 29 дней назад

    this video is so brave

  • Ansley Williamson
    Ansley Williamson 29 дней назад

    thank you so much for opening up about this! You are incredibly brave and I feel for you and Steven. You both will be such amazing parents when the time is right. I'll keep you in my prayers. Thank you for your strength Desi!! We love you xx

  • marah massri
    marah massri 29 дней назад

    Desi, what you’ve done and said is so brave and you are really a great person and i love you and steven very much, such a perfect couple.
    God bless you with a child and make you guys happy because you deserve it.
    I love you and i watch you always (i even watch your videos twice&more) and you actually got me crying the whole video i feel i’m so close to you somehow i don’t know .
    i will pray for you each day until you announce your Pregnancy that’s a promise!!

    Marah

  • Fal Gajjar
    Fal Gajjar 29 дней назад

    Sending you hugs and positive vibes. Your a brave and kind human for sharing despite it making you upset and emotional. X

  • Patel Vinod
    Patel Vinod Месяц назад

    C

  • Alexis Villegas
    Alexis Villegas Месяц назад

    We love you Desi!!

  • Allie Matilion
    Allie Matilion Месяц назад

    My heart goes out to you, but deep down I know you will have a child. Patience my love ❤️😘

  • Krystal Allen
    Krystal Allen Месяц назад +1

    🙏Prayers of blessings to you and your family Desi ☮️💞🕉

  • Juliette or whateva
    Juliette or whateva Месяц назад

    ❤️

  • Elle Jay
    Elle Jay Месяц назад

    You might not see this comment, but I really hope you do. I know this might sound crazy, but I promise you wont have anything to lose by trying it. Go on a ketogenic diet, give it 2 to 4 months, even more if you can. and during those months keep trying. I don't wanna promise you that you will get pregnant but if there is a chance for you to get pregnant then this is it. You have no idea the amount of people who got pregnant on keto, some of them even while using protection, that's how fertile it makes you. If a women is menopausal, she starts getting her period again on keto. Please, just please try it. Research all these different stories of people who knew they could never have kids and yet they accidentally did on this diet. PLEASE please just try it, you wont lose anything, the diet alone is just pure amazing, and add to it insane fertility?? Jackpot!! Best of luck!

  • kldruh
    kldruh Месяц назад

    would you adopt?

  • Brittany Morgan
    Brittany Morgan Месяц назад

    I did the same thing to myself with 4 years with an old boyfriend.. things didn’t work out between us which maybe the reason I didn’t get pregnant.. the universe telling me it wasn’t the life for me.. years later I met my now fiancé and now I have two little boys 22 months apart.. I wish I could tell you that I know what your feeling and it’s all okay.. doesn’t help the inner battle I know.. we’re our own worst enemy sometimes.. but I have not a single doubt your miracle will happen.

  • Shelby Lomont
    Shelby Lomont Месяц назад

    God works in mysterious ways. I keep convincing myself that I can’t get pregnant.. I was on the depo shot for 3 years & I don’t get how i’m not pregnant with my fiancé yet. I leave for the military in March & I want so bad to get pregnant & start a family once i’m stationed. I can’t wait to see him light up if I can tell him we’re having a baby. his dad was murdered when he was 5 & his mother gave him up at the age of 8. so he never had parents & I know he will be an amazing one. Steven & you are gonna be amazing parents & I pray y’all receive great news soon.

  • Maitha Al Remeithi
    Maitha Al Remeithi Месяц назад

    I hope you get blessed with the most adorable baby. You will get through it and I can't wait 'till I see your announcement video

  • Erica Morales
    Erica Morales Месяц назад

    I miscarried 3 years ago, and were still struggling to conceive. It’s nice to have other people telling their stories, it’s nice to not feel alone. I hope you (and I) are able to be a mom soon. 😔❤️

  • Frau KPunkt
    Frau KPunkt Месяц назад

    You will be fine! Don´t stress yourself! Big Hug!!! Kisses from germany! I´m sure you will have a beautiful family! Believe in yourself! Give youself time Secrets happen!!! Stay strong!!!

  • Pamela Rodriguez
    Pamela Rodriguez Месяц назад

    Don’t give up hope ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • 1musclovr1
    1musclovr1 Месяц назад

    Hi desi,
    I just stumbled on this post about wanting to have a family and get pregnant. I normally don’t comment on people’s videos, but I wanted to tell you that this moment I truely felt your pain and I uncontrollably prayed for you from the depth of my soul. I don’t get god sometimes. He gifts those people that truely don’t deserve this amazing gift but yet you, a person that really deserve it and would be an amazing mother are struggling getting pregnant. I am a very spiritual person and every night talk to god and thank him for all the amazing gifts I have in my life. I really prayed for you. I know deep in my soul that you will be gifted with a beautiful child in the upcoming year(god willing). Don’t give up. You deserve to be a mother and will be an amazing one. I watch your tutorials all the time and love your looks and truely think you are a gifted artist, however, what I see looking at you tells me you are the most genuine and real person. I am hopeful for you and will keep you in my prayers every night. I promise you will get pregnant. Mark my words... 2019 will be your year... this comes from the depth of my soul.. I prayed for my sister to get pregnant and she just celebrated her twins (boy and a girl) first birthday, yesterday, and mind you she is 47 years old. I feel this in my heart that god will listen to my prayers.. please just tell me when you do find out you are pregnant, because I want to prove that my prayers do come true.... I love you as a person and will keep you in my prayers

  • BusyLizzy
    BusyLizzy Месяц назад +2

    In Jesus name, let it be!! 🙏🏼

  • Patel sandeep
    Patel sandeep Месяц назад

    Patel

  • Shumz
    Shumz Месяц назад

    It’s so true that everyone is battling something so please be kind. I can relate to this on so many levels for myself and for so many people in my life. Thank you so so much for addressing such a normal issue.

  • Lauren Aleman
    Lauren Aleman Месяц назад

    My names Lauren and I've started following the Phil and Alex channel a couple going through journey of infertility and ivf . and I've been praying for them and now I'll start praying for you. 3 of my aunts had difficulties getting pregnant 1 aunt got pregnant right at 40 and had two miracle babies my 2 aunt couldn't get pregnant til about 43 and was able to have 1 miracle baby and lastly my 3rd aunt was able to find a wonderful surrogate to carry her miracle baby. As I told Phil and Alex. I've seen with my eyes those 3 beautiful miracle baby cousins of mine.miracle babies happen . sometimes babies just need help getting to you. I'm so beyond grateful that you have your brother and mom. My mom and I aren't close but my brother and I are. When I was younger we were enseparable.

  • Megan Giles
    Megan Giles Месяц назад

    ♥️ that you have shared your story. This has helped me so much, in a way that makes me feel like I’m not alone. I have had a miscarriage as well and have always feared to have another one as it really breaks u! It will happen one day beautiful 😁 sending you, Stephen and your beautiful doggy’s love and light ♥️

  • Amina Cherrine
    Amina Cherrine Месяц назад

    Lord I’ve been here before. I know this exact feeling. I pray that the Lord gives you and your husband a family. I Pray that your womb is opened and that this all happens in Gods timing. May Peace & Happiness overwhelm you.❤️

  • Chrissy Moss
    Chrissy Moss Месяц назад

    My heart is breaking for you and your husband 😢😢. Hope is the one thing we all grab onto in adverse situations, keep grabbing.
    Multiple miscarriages would, maybe, indicate a physical problem but from all you have said it definitely sounds like a hormonal imbalance ie: ovulation.
    I speak from experience. I came to understand that the absence of pregnancies meant I could carry a child once my ovary hiccup was sorted. (Like you I had a miscarriage).
    It's such a soul destroying experience, I feel I cried for my history as you told your story.
    I am now a mum to 2 children. Children I was convinced I would never have. There's a huge age gap between them (wasn't plain sailing).
    Lice, light and happiness to you Desi xxx 💕xxx

  • Alyssa Lucero
    Alyssa Lucero Месяц назад

    Desi, I'm so sorry. I worked for fertility doctors for a couple years and it always broke my heart to hear couples' stories about how they couldn't get pregnant. You're not alone. I've seen some of the most miraculous things happen. Keeping you in my prayers❤️

  • lafabricadebodas
    lafabricadebodas Месяц назад

    ♥️♥️♥️

  • Crhisty Encarnacion
    Crhisty Encarnacion Месяц назад

    Your are blessed. ❤️🙏

  • shoppingbagtiffy
    shoppingbagtiffy Месяц назад

    Awwww. Desi we love you sooo much! **Hugs**

  • MONA RAHMAN
    MONA RAHMAN Месяц назад

    I am so sorry God please bless her with a child

  • Aicha Sameer
    Aicha Sameer Месяц назад

    Omg this is so sad, you are so brave to even talk about it love you so much huge respect for you❤

  • brightside 786
    brightside 786 Месяц назад

    Don’t lose hope, God bless you, trust His timing 🙏🏼♥️ don’t pressure yourself and stress, try and relax and focus on yourself and self care, it will be when it’s meant to be xxx

  • Shakira Patel
    Shakira Patel Месяц назад

    Girllll .. have patience it will defo happen for you... god is the best of planners and he will give you the gift at the right time hope you’re okay .. it’s all about the timing hun xx hope you feel better and I hope ppl can understand that it’s a very sensitive topic and I hope your video defo creates the awareness.. hopefully it goes threw to some people xx chin up take care

  • Krena Singh
    Krena Singh Месяц назад

    ❤️

  • Naila Basharat
    Naila Basharat Месяц назад +1

    I will happen don’t stress about it. My husband and I tried for 4 years and went to fertility doctor we had 3 unsuccessful IUI cycles. Then we try for IVF and today I am 8.5 months pregnant. I feel you I can relate, you’re not alone. It will definitely happened when it meant to be. ♥️♥️ more power to you. Don’t terrify. Love you. Don’t listen to people and just be happy. Good luck with your treatment

  • Astrid Verhulst
    Astrid Verhulst Месяц назад

    To share a story like this in such a powerfully vulnerable way... wow. Rest assure that you'll have helped SO MANY people who are going through similar struggles. You are a true gem.

  • Julie Schubert
    Julie Schubert Месяц назад

    Buy bulk ovulation tests on Amazon and test two to three times a day. I couldn’t get pregnant until I did this. Turns out I would test positive for ovulation at night but by morning it would be negative. I was missing my window for five years!!!

  • Brittany McDermott
    Brittany McDermott 2 месяца назад

    Thank you for sharing your story. You are so incredibly brave and this takes so much courage. This is not easy. It truly feels so lonely and scary especially when the want to be a mother is so deep in your heart. I have gone through the same emotional journey and there truly is a plan but I wish you all the best on your journey to parenthood as I hope for myself. Stay strong and keep your faith always even during those dark moments. Thank you again for sharing. You aren’t alone and it helps to know neither am I.

  • Louise Done
    Louise Done 2 месяца назад

    🙌❤❤❤❤ such a beautiful soul! Xxxxxxxx

  • Lovely Jay
    Lovely Jay 2 месяца назад

    Just the same way God blesses Hannah with a son he can do the same with you! Believe desi we love you 💖

  • Angel Phan
    Angel Phan 2 месяца назад +3

    I'm an ultrasound tech & this really touches me.. A lot of mamas come in with miscarriages and I always try to be the most support person that I can for them. It's such a vulnerable time for the moms. I always try them to help with cleaning up after the exams & bring them warm blankets, water, whatever helps ease them a little. It's a difficult subject but it happens more than people talk about. This is such a needed video Desi

    • Erica Morales
      Erica Morales Месяц назад

      Angel Phan it’s a beautiful thing that you’re doing for these women. I have to say, the support I got from my doctor, the nurses, the doctor and his assistants when I did the HSG, all the people aware of my loss really made me feel safe and supported. It’s important. ❤️

  • Marina
    Marina 2 месяца назад

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • Cassandra Gonzalez
    Cassandra Gonzalez 2 месяца назад

    I keep coming back to this video for motivation... but my husband & I are currently trying to get pregnant and it’s not happening. It’s hard for me to pretend to be happy when it’s literally all I think about. Thank you for being so open about this, Desi!

  • alyssa delatorre
    alyssa delatorre 2 месяца назад

    You said in this video you hope that this video will help people. Today i went to a doctors appointment after finding out i was pregnant about a month ago. I went into the appointment with nerves but high hopes. Went into my ultrasound and new instantly that things did not look right. The ultra sound tech said, " hold on i need to figure out whats going on here." It took her a while but i already knew what they were going to say. This is the third time i have misscarried. So many emotions and thoughts take over at this point...but today i felt numb. J think even the Doctors were expecting much more. I left the hospital and it hit me...i could not bring myself to return to work. I came home and did not know what to do with myself. So i did what i always used to do....decided to turn on yourtube and watch tutorials. Already being a big fan i decided to check out your page and see what new content you had. This was the video that popped up first. I am glad you posted it. I would never wish this on you, and i will keep you in my prayers. I am very thankful however that you posted this....so many of us feel the sting that you feel when we hear those comments and identify with the fwelings you feel. I would never have the bravery to discuss what ive gone through and to do it on such a public platform is admirable. Thank you so much for sharing yourself with the world!

  • Alessandra DiMaggio
    Alessandra DiMaggio 2 месяца назад

    im am so supporting you in everything you do

  • Victoria Jean
    Victoria Jean 2 месяца назад

    💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

  • Lauren Hoyle
    Lauren Hoyle 2 месяца назад

    Desi you are such a strong and beautiful person and you constantly bring others so much joy, it is so hard to see you hurting like this. Just know that we appreciate how brave you were in sharing these feelings with us and making this video. I believe that you and Steven are destined to be amazing parents and I can’t wait to see your family grow. Sending so much love, positive thoughts and prayers your way 💜

  • Julie Pinedo
    Julie Pinedo 2 месяца назад

    Thank you so much for being brave and making this video. I’m praying for you and Steven to get pregnant at the perfect time. God’s plans are always better than ours and the most powerful thing you can do is to believe his promises. He’s the one who placed our desires in us , so he made you with the desire of having a family and I believe he wouldn’t do that if he wasn’t going to fulfill that desire. I’ve always wanted to be a mom and have a family too, SO strongly. Ive also always had the fear that maybe I couldn’t get pregnant. I just got married a couple months ago and we want to start a family, but a part of me is scared to REALLY try and plan and put effort, because what if? My mom had a miscarriage before me, like you said it’s so common, but no one deserves to go through that. Your story really touched me and I just wanted to say thank you for being real Desi ❤️

  • Daniela Vassallo
    Daniela Vassallo 2 месяца назад

    I send you all my positive energy and a big big hug honey. I love you 💖💖💖💖🙏🌟🤞

  • MC .Woodall
    MC .Woodall 2 месяца назад

    Sending love always.

  • Duchess Liz
    Duchess Liz 2 месяца назад

    My aunt tried for ten years to get have a baby because she kept miscarrying. She had five miscarriages. Then she finally had a healthy baby boy. A year later she had a healthy baby girl. A few years after that she had another healthy baby boy. And two years ago she had another healthy baby boy. She's 42 now. She was 30 when her eldest was born. Sometimes we struggle to start a family. We suffer loss. And heartbreak. And my heart goes to all those out there that have to go through such a rough time. I hope that, like my aunt, it happens for you.

  • True Beauty Ashley
    True Beauty Ashley 2 месяца назад

    Your so amazing! Keep your faith strong! I had 4 miscarriages and have two beautiful girls! You should look into a herb called dong qui it helped me i swear by it .. also more progesterone helps too! But everyone is different I wish you the best babe ! 💕🙏🏼

  • Ana Caicedo Macia
    Ana Caicedo Macia 2 месяца назад

    You poor thing! I am so sorry you are having to go through this. Sending you guys so much love

  • Pain Sucks
    Pain Sucks 2 месяца назад

    I haven’t even finished watching this yet but I just have to say you are such a strong women. I know that doesn’t help you but lord, the people you have just helped maybe even saved at your own expense is impossible to gage at this point. You truly are courageous. You have all my love and support.

  • Andrea
    Andrea 2 месяца назад

    I am by no means a fan. BUT. My heart goes out to you. I can’t imagine going through something like this. I got pregnant at 19 by total surprise after a one night thing.. and I realize I’ve taken that for granted. If you feel you’re meant to be a mom. You will be. One way or another. Praying for you, sending a virtual hug your way.

  • Tony Ranko
    Tony Ranko 2 месяца назад

    Gods gonna get you though it what ever problem u have give it to God and he’ll work them out cuz I seen him do it may the lord put peace on yous keep the faith

  • Emma Viola
    Emma Viola 2 месяца назад

    Awwww, babe! I’m new-ish and had no idea, that this happened, I’m so sorry❤️ Even though I am very young, this video meant a lot to me. It made me feel like, I’m not alone. It made me think about, the fact that there is always somebody that understands how you’re feeling. I’m sure that this video helped someone! Also, I’m just going to say what everybody is thinking: YOU’RE GOING TO BE THE BEST MOM EVER! Once this blessing does come upon you, we will all be soooo happy for you, and it will be amazing! But until then, do your thing girl! Because we love you and support you, pregnant or not❤️ Btw, your babies will be the cutest!💛💛💛😉

  • S Gutierrez
    S Gutierrez 2 месяца назад +2

    This IS going to happen for you. I know this. I feel this. The timing hasn’t came but it’s coming & I am so excited for whenever that time may be & when it comes. Love you & Steven.

  • Morgan Merriman
    Morgan Merriman 2 месяца назад

    Desi, you’re amazing ❤️ thank you for sharing. You’re not alone 😊

  • Carmen Hernández
    Carmen Hernández 2 месяца назад

    I have trouble trying to watch your video because I had the same problem. My husband and I struggled for years trying to get pregnant. One day after 11 years I decided that I was okay in my heart to accept what I believe it was god’s will. 3 months later I got pregnant ! I know what you feel? The pain so difficult to explain, family and friends always asking you when? I never opened up about my fertility problems with no one.
    Now I have a beautiful girl, I don’t want you to lose hope... our miracle it took almost 12 years to became a reality, I know that it will happen to you too.
    Thank you for sharing your story, for having the courage to speak up about something that is so hard and personal. Gracias y muchos besitos

  • Chloe Book
    Chloe Book 2 месяца назад

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. You aren't alone 💛 when i was thirteen I has one of my tubes removed because it was blocked with fluid and punctured. The doctor told my family that there was still a probability I could get pregnant but that it would be difficult and i would be at a higher risk of losing the baby. I hadn't thought much about it until recently when I had really considered my future and the possibility of stsrting a family. I too, knew that all i ever wanted in life was to be a mom. Although I knew I wasn't ready to have a child, I secretly hoped I was and when i would eventually get my period I would be extremely depressed. You aren't alone, Desi. Your truth is going to help so many others. I wish you and steven all the best and what is meant to be will be 💛

  • gaga yufsky
    gaga yufsky 2 месяца назад

    Hey listen i know its hard for u and ur husband filming this ,i dont know when u will have babies bt im sure you will be a great mother just let ppl talk ,you know they talk if u dont have child they say wheres ur baby and when u already have they say wheres ur second?!!so its your life u dont need to explain and one thing:next time when you get pregnant dont say enyone and dont let enyone know even hide ur body as much as u can believe me its the best thing you can do before childbirth like kylie (my grandma sais its keeping u and ur baby from getting hurt)i dont believe that bad omen eyes exist bt i believe in bad energies. dont open up ur life for thousands ppl if theyre fans they will understand

  • Jade T
    Jade T 2 месяца назад

    This is so so hard to deal with... my mom had three different miscarriages between my siblings and I. It is truly so so hard but God has a plan for everyone. I’ve heard just tracking your cycle will help you familiarize yourself with what your body goes through and the feelings you get each month. You’ll start to realize patterns and that will help. But I truly believe God will bless you two with a beautiful baby.

  • Kelsey Kosmetology
    Kelsey Kosmetology 2 месяца назад

    You’re such a beautiful person, inside and out and I know you will be an amazing, caring and loving mother one day. 💕

  • Jessica Hello
    Jessica Hello 2 месяца назад

    Coming back 3 months after this video because I’m going thru the same things and I’m trying to find strength in your strength. You are not alone desi, I pray for you and this struggle quite frequently, especially since I have been going through this for the past year. I know how you feel and all the emotions and thoughts that run thru your head. God be with you, to give you strength and love and happiness. Thank you for opening up your heart, it means so much to know you’re not alone in a situation like this. So much love for you and Steven.❤️❤️

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    Dina Gh 2 месяца назад

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  • Hristiyana Peycheva
    Hristiyana Peycheva 2 месяца назад

    Have you checked your thyroid gland levels?very often the reason for not getting pregnant easy or miscarriages i

    • Hristiyana Peycheva
      Hristiyana Peycheva 2 месяца назад

      Is the thyroid hypofunction.maybe your doctor had already made this test.if not you should

  • Julie Kostas
    Julie Kostas 2 месяца назад

    What a great team you and your husband make. Wishing you future blessings. So nice to know you have such good people in your life 🌺

  • Jennifer Renee Crust
    Jennifer Renee Crust 2 месяца назад

    I just found you tonight on RUclip. This is the 3rd video I have watched and my heart breaks for you. I am so sorry you are going through this. Keep your head up. It Will Happen!!! You guys are in my prayers.

  • Hamda Khalid
    Hamda Khalid 2 месяца назад

    May God be with you... you will have a baby soon... trust no body but God