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  • Опубликовано: 10 июл 2018
  • This is a long one....but it all needed to be said. I hope this video helps anyone that's going through something similar, and to know that you're not alone. I also hope this video educates anyone who doesn't know how pregnancy questions could affect someone who's dealt or dealing with a stillbirth, miscarriages, infertility & any other pregnancy complications.
    Extending all my love to all of those who are suffering. Know that I'm here with you ❤️
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  • Rg6o6h
    Rg6o6h 2 часа назад

    out of tragedy comes something good . thank you for sharing i am sure your good deed will get you in place where you will be so much happier soon. ox

  • Oona Tarvajärvi
    Oona Tarvajärvi 2 часа назад

    ❤️

  • CC S
    CC S 3 часа назад

    def sucks to be 32 and never been pregnant and everyone around you asks all the time it just makes the fear really real bc I'm not even sure if I could get pregnant bc of health issues while I was young. I've always wanted to adopt but I always pictured myself having a biological child at least one even though I want more. but I wish you the best of luck with all of this, be strong and God will bless you with whatever belongs to you in this life! just stay positive bc that affects everything else 💖💚

  • Chiara Makarios
    Chiara Makarios 3 часа назад

    Desi this was beautiful. You will have a baby, Mark 11:24. Please remain positive and trust that God will make a way 🙏🏽✨

  • Karla galan
    Karla galan 4 часа назад

    Hi Desi, I loved this video so much not because I can relate to your situation but because I know a God of miracles and is all about Gods perfect timing, he is never early, and he is never late. I just wanted to share this link with you because I feel like it’s going to touch you and help you a lot to understand 💖😊🙏🏼 ruclip.com/video/IvAsbxypIl0/видео.html

  • Lisa Belyanina Make-up
    Lisa Belyanina Make-up 4 часа назад

    💓💓💓

  • Ifeoluwa Olunu
    Ifeoluwa Olunu 5 часов назад

    I’m so sorry Desi!! God is able! My head really goes out to you. Don’t stop believing. Okay!

  • lilibaby857
    lilibaby857 5 часов назад

    Crying! I really hope you get pregnant soon i can't wait to see your happy face!! You will be the greatest mom ever!

  • Pauline Greeve
    Pauline Greeve 6 часов назад

    Hi Desi, I just wanted to tell you how strong it is to make a video like this. I wish you a lot of strength and I just send you a lot of positivity from Spain. Lots of hugs xxx

  • rice.bunny
    rice.bunny 6 часов назад +1

    Desi, I AM SURE that everything's going to be ok!!!! I KNOW that. It's gonna happen :* :* :* I'm with you and I'll pray for you

  • Heather Modica
    Heather Modica 6 часов назад

    I randomly chose to watch this video and I feel obligated to comment. I am so sorry for your loss and for what you have been going through the last few years. I know how heartbreaking it is to want a baby and have issues. I know what is like to have family and friends and strangers ask when you are going to get pregnant. My husband and I tried for two years without any results. I talked myself into the hope of being pregnant and took more pregnancy tests than I can count. Feeling inadequate and like I wasn’t capable of doing the main thing a women can do; killed me inside. A family member got pregnant with her second child and “rubbed it in” every chance that she could. It was heartbreaking and soul crushing and I am so sorry that you are going through those same feelings. We finally went to the dr. to see what was going on. My husband was checked and he was fine which further led to my feelings of inadequacy knowing that I was the problem. I finally found out that I had pcos and wasn’t ovulating. I was given medication to regulate my period as well as medication to help me ovulate. I won’t lie, the metformin was incredibly hard on my stomach but it did get me pregnant. I now have a beautiful 2 year old daughter but I still 100% can empathize with your feelings/pain. I hope you find that some medication is all that you need to assist in the process and I hope that you also end up with a beautiful, healthy baby. Even though I don’t know you, we are sisters in a way and I will keep you in my thoughts. Good luck to you and your husband. I wish nothing but happiness for you both going forward.

  • 3layerzdeep
    3layerzdeep 6 часов назад

    omg!! u cannot watch this video w out shedding sum tears.. ur hubby's reaction 2 the prego news just broke my heart.. so happy.. I'm so sorry

  • Lana Banana
    Lana Banana 6 часов назад

    Hi I just wanted to say from someone who tried for 4 years and I was at the point where I was sad and depressed because I though I could not have babies BUT by the grace of God I was pregnant with my first baby boy who is 2 now. And I have a 6 month old now and I found out about him when my first was 1 and a half. My only explanation could be god wanted me to wait because had I not had to wait I wouldn't have my sweet Easton I would have some other kid. Please keep trying and don't give up.

    • Lana Banana
      Lana Banana 6 часов назад

      I hope this is helpful but they have ovulation tests at the store. They could maybe alert you to the best time to really focus on. I really pray that everything you want happens for you.

  • Ella Chadney
    Ella Chadney 7 часов назад

  • Haley Bulin
    Haley Bulin 7 часов назад

    Stay strong baby girl! You are the strongest💕 you got this! Have faith in you 🙏🏼 prayers always.

  • Amy Anderson
    Amy Anderson 7 часов назад

    Who thumbs down this? Like do you not have a soul?

  • Somer Koehn
    Somer Koehn 8 часов назад

    Thank you for making this. For being raw. My husband and I had 3 miscarriages before finally having our sweet daughter. Now, 5 years later, we have had 4 more miscarriages and we are in the clear to try again. This will be our second cycle TTC and I'm positive we will have another baby, but fearful as well. The doctor has mapped out a plan, and we know why I was losing the babies now. I'm just scared. After so much loss, fear really gets it's claws in deep. Fear of losing another baby. Fear of not being able to get pregnant again. It isn't easy for everyone, and nobody really talks about how hard it really is. ❤ so much love to you and I hope your rainbow baby comes soon.

  • Skye Bryant
    Skye Bryant 9 часов назад

    You'll be in my thoughts. Thank you for sharing your story. You're so brave and you are not alone.

  • Leyda Paredes
    Leyda Paredes 9 часов назад

    My heart is with you Desi ❤️ You’re a very strong and brave woman to share such a personal story. I pray for you and Steve, I pray God guides you both through this tough journey. Don’t give up, everything happens for a reason. Love you so much ❤️

  • Diana Marquez
    Diana Marquez 9 часов назад

    I being in a relationship for 10 yrs going on 11 in September n I also have a problem getting pregnant I’m going on 5 years trying to get pregnant gone thru depressing twice cause your so hopeful for that pregnancy test to read yes have faith I know I do n I know you’re soon gonna announce you’re pregnant I’m praying for you and for baby Perkins to be here soon sending lots of love 😘😘

  • Shira Rivka
    Shira Rivka 10 часов назад

    who the hell unliked it??

  • Power Of Kay
    Power Of Kay 10 часов назад

    Thank you for being so vulnerable and telling your story in more depth. I sent this to my sister as she is going through a similar situation. She said she will watch it after she finishes work. Desi i love you and have so much respect for you. Thank you for allowing me to understand how my sister is feeling as well. Its educating others around the person too on how to just be more sensitive and understanding

  • Andrea Gomez
    Andrea Gomez 10 часов назад

    hi desi that's exactly how I felt right now

  • Marnz C
    Marnz C 11 часов назад

    This breaks my freaking heart!
    I’ve always been a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. & I think that you were given this gift & purpose to be able to share your story with others.
    Please don’t give up. I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart.

  • Gennybee’s Beauty
    Gennybee’s Beauty 11 часов назад

    I’m 30, and I’ve been with my husband for 15years and married 6 years, and I have sickle cell and I’ve wanted kids forever! And I used to dream about being pregnant, baby showers, nursery’s! And every time my period would be late I’d think I was pregnant and I’d take a test and of coarse it would come out negative and I’d be hurt! My older sister has 2 boys! And then my younger sister got pregnant and didn’t want to tell me because I was supposed to be next! And she had two kids! So I felt left out! When my friends were having babies I’d be so mad that it wasn’t me! I’ve always wanted to be a mom! But in 2010 we lost our dad to brain cancer.. so my mom was raising our brother by herself and my brother has Down syndrome! And then in 2016 we lost our mom to liver cancer, and my brother a left with no parents and so me and my husband have him now! He is 15 but mentally 4/5! And ever since my brother was born me and my husband have been so close to him like he was our own! So after 15years I believe god planned on us having my brother to take care of! But it still hurts me that I haven’t been pregnant! I know how you feel! But god has a plan for you I promise

  • MAKEUP BY Oz
    MAKEUP BY Oz 12 часов назад

    Wow. I didnt even know this video was regarding this when I clicked on it. I dont comment ever but I just miscarried at 21 weeks about 2 mos ago. I AM LITERALLY CRYING watching this. I feel so much more connected to your journey now. I love you and know your pain. I know the joy AND the pain that is breathtaking and heartbreaking. We had a huge gender reveal party and everything. I will be praying for you always.

  • Cuteness Overload
    Cuteness Overload 12 часов назад +1

    I know a family with more than 6 misscariages,struggling with a child's death and waiting for 9 years for a child to come ....but they did it and now they have an amazing 18 years old daughter ,my best friend !!! I hope the best for you and your family ...and yeah you ARE a FAMILYYY ...it takes 2 or more people to be a family and you have steven so you should not feel embarrashed or anything ...that is a true blessing and god has more for you two to enjoy !!! I send allll my positive thinking to you guys....looooove u!

  • lizzfrmhon
    lizzfrmhon 13 часов назад

    So basically people pressure her to have babies and she can’t. There I saved you a lot of time. Ok this is sad but seems at the same time clickbait and trying to profit off a sad situation. Why can’t some things remain private? It’s her choice to put it out there, but in my opinion I don’t agree.

  • Sarah Hayes
    Sarah Hayes 13 часов назад

    ❤ you desi ... your an amazing person , your such a beautiful soul , thank you for sharing your personal experiences it does help people who have had hard times too , so bless your heart , xx

  • Itzell Oseguera
    Itzell Oseguera 13 часов назад

    I’m going through this at the moment with my fiancé and it does break my heart because I thought deep in my heart I was pregnant .. I sometimes feel like something is wrong with me because my fiancés friends keep asking when we’re going to have a baby etc but honey lets have faith and try to be at our healthiest so we can have the healthiest baby, God knows when .. I am in this journey with you Desi 💛

  • Abigail Owonam
    Abigail Owonam 13 часов назад

    God is with you as a mighty terrible one and he will come to your aid. My mum suffered miscarriages like everyday! But now she has four children. Even after having us she still has miscarriages. But she's doing fine and God has been so merciful with us. We do nothing special to deserve that, God loves every one equally he is not a man! Have faith be strong don't let careless comments weigh you down. You are loved!! By God and also by mee😍🤗. Be strong💪🏾!! It'll all be worth it someday!!

  • Atitwiz
    Atitwiz 14 часов назад

    I send you a lot of love

  • Lee Cervantes
    Lee Cervantes 14 часов назад

    Love you so much Desi. I cried with you and empathize. Wish I could give you a heartfelt hug. You and your husband are such incredible people. Please keep shining.

  • Katarina Forster
    Katarina Forster 15 часов назад

    You are loved God has a plan❤️

  • Kelly Beans
    Kelly Beans 15 часов назад

    This video made my teared up over & over again especially seeing the video clips you had filmed from before. I wish I can give you a hug & cry with you. Thank you for sharing this video with us Desi, I've been watching your videos for a while now but this one really hit me hard. It takes a lot of courage to open up & talk about this sensitive subject publicly when you're usually portrayed as a fun/happy/glamorous person on social media so I appreciate how real you got in this video. This video will definitely help uplift others who are going through a similar situation as you & Steven. I am hopeful for you both & both of you will make amazing parents whether you will have biological children or choose for adoption because the pre-parental love you both already have now will only multiply when that timing comes. I agree that pregnancy comments are very disrespectful & inconsiderate, not only the ones published online but it's also not cool to ask in-person too. I'm sorry you've been feeling depressed & alone but we are all here for you & we love you! Thank you for choosing to share your personal life with us & making us all feel relatable. Never lose your gleam of hope because the best things are saved for last.

  • Priscilla Gonzalez
    Priscilla Gonzalez 15 часов назад

    You are brave for talking about this. Thank you for sharing. Im sure there is someone out there who is greatful u made this video becaue she feels the same. May God bless you and see yoy through this

  • Naomi Justice
    Naomi Justice 15 часов назад

    This melts my heart, you are so strong & so beautiful

  • Ashley Frausto
    Ashley Frausto 16 часов назад

    Desi you are an angel. You are in my prayers. God is good and has a great plan for you. Don’t ever stop believing. Praying for you now, and I will continue to pray for your future family! I can’t wait for the day when you come on here and announce you are pregnant. The whole world will be rejoicing with you. We love you Desi!❤️

  • Mo_neeekk
    Mo_neeekk 16 часов назад

    It’s going to be okay ! From the bottom of my heart .. May God bless you ! 🙏🏼

  • Crystal Pacheco
    Crystal Pacheco 16 часов назад

    The clip of Steven was great

  • HAUSOFCOLOR
    HAUSOFCOLOR 16 часов назад

    Watching this was so emotional... you are such a beautiful soul desi... wishing you and the hubs nothing but the best, sending so much love your way ♥️♥️♥️

  • Just Janae
    Just Janae 16 часов назад

    Thank you for sharing your story. Such a brave thing to do. ❤️

  • Heather Evans
    Heather Evans 17 часов назад

    You’re so brave ❤️

  • Steph Beauty Artistry
    Steph Beauty Artistry 18 часов назад

    It will come when you least expect it 💖 wishing you all the best

  • Ashleigh Minor
    Ashleigh Minor 18 часов назад

    This is my biggest fear. I’m so scared of this and I just balled my eyes out for you. I can only imagine how you feel.. but I know you’ll have a baby and I will pray for you! Maybe it’s because you have so much going on right now and God is waiting because you’re enjoying this part of your life right now. Love you Desi, so much! ♥️

  • Saira Khan
    Saira Khan 18 часов назад

    Do you realize how many people will be praying for you after this video? I made a sincere prayer for you, trust me God is so magical and when strangers make prayers for you it's stronger. If you read this please make prayer for her.

  • Erika Figueroa
    Erika Figueroa 18 часов назад

    God bless you both😘... God will send you a little angel when you least expect it. 😊 You had me crying the whole time because I went through the same thing. Having a miscarriage is so hard for a woman. I will never forget 😔 I’m scared to try again... I strongly agree that everything happens for a reason, so whenever god wants to plant that little peanut inside me, I will happily accept 😁.
    Stay strong and professional help is the best thing you can do...
    Advice: Just make sure your cervix isn’t tilted and if it is, get it massaged back in place.

  • Dania Ahmad
    Dania Ahmad 19 часов назад

    You are so strong. So brave. So kind for making this video. People need to understand that this is a very sensitive and personal thing. Have faith. I know someone very close who just had a serious surgery and there are no chances of her ever having her children. So u not ovulating is really a small problem and thank God there is an easy fix. Also, in my humble opinion, after this very personal video I wouldnt share anything related to your family on social media especially with a following like yours. We believe in the evil eye. We believe that you should nvr fully share ur happiness with the world to protect what it is u r happy about. Just be happy with ur loved ones, share with your loves ones, give charity, and pray to God that when its is time, may he Bless you and your family with a healthy and long living baby that will always be the delight of your eyes. Ameen.

  • Charlottees
    Charlottees 19 часов назад

    You are a remarkable woman. Your strength is inspiring. So grateful that you’ve chosen to share this with us. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • ms killa
    ms killa 19 часов назад

    Try prenatals, taking them for about 6 months and continue to be proactive to get your levels up. You are going to get what you desire. Believe sweetie.

  • Claudia Garcia
    Claudia Garcia 19 часов назад

    Desi. You are one amazing woman. I love you so much! You touched my heart more than words can express. Please, NEVER give up, nor feel embarrassed. God will NEVER put you through something you cannot conquer. You and Steven are in my prayers. May your beautiful home and daily life and attitude be blessed with lots of love, hope, faith and gratitude. You are amazing. Wow I am stunned by how beautiful your heart is. You are definitely being watched over by beautiful angels and of course our Lord. I knew I loved you as a person for more than just the regular daily content you posted. Thank you so much for sharing your story❤️

  • Paige Gosser
    Paige Gosser 19 часов назад

    💕💕💕 so proud of you for being brave and sharing this. So many people are struggling with the same thing and need to hear other women talk about it. Maybe you are going through all this for a time, just so that you can reach out to others. God has a beautiful plan for your life, I mean already you’ve been given such an incredible platform, and I truly believe that one day this will just be a small part of that amazing story. 💕 keep the faith sister. You’ll be in my prayers.

    • Paige Gosser
      Paige Gosser 18 часов назад

      Also I love the song “take courage” by Bethel. It says “take courage my heart. Stay steadfast my soul. He’s in the waiting. ...and You who hold the stars, and call them each by name, will surely keep
      Your promise to me, that I will rise in Your victory.”
      6The Lord protects the simple-hearted
      when I was brought low, he saved me.
      5Gracious is the Lord, and righteous;
      our God is merciful.
      7Return, O my soul, to your rest;
      for the Lord has dealt bountifully with you.
      8For you have delivered my soul from death,
      my eyes from tears, 💕
      my feet from stumbling;
      9I will walk before the Lord
      in the land of the living.” -Psalm 116

  • Serena Arvayo
    Serena Arvayo 19 часов назад

    So much love and light to you. I always look at your videos and pics with your husband, and of your house and think I would do anything to be that happy, but this shows you are human too. Thank you for your strength and sharing your story. It has also opened my eyes up. I was a mom at the age of 19, and now a single mom to a 6 year old boy living with severe autism. This journey of raising him has been the most challenging and some days I don’t know if I’m strong enough to continue. This is my struggle, but this video has made me hug him tight and be thankful for his life even if it’s not the life I imagined for himself or for me. I am still thankful for him. I will pray for you and your husband. You are incredible ! ❤️

  • Karen Estrada
    Karen Estrada 19 часов назад

    I am in my IVF treatment number 3, believe me it is hard to tried and tried and not getting pregnant.

  • The7thTaciturnWriter
    The7thTaciturnWriter 19 часов назад

    My mom already had 3 children before she had me. She was 34, and trying not to get pregnant as she was getting older. But boom, she got pregnant with me! My dad named me Lucky 'cause he said I was a lucky baby. I got pregnant last year without expecting it, and now I have 1 year old boy! Also, I have a friend who tried for 8 years, and just 2yrs ago, she had her daughter. Don't give up Desi! You will be a mom someday. ❤

  • PinkPiratePixie
    PinkPiratePixie 19 часов назад

    I’ve gone thru this and haven’t had children either. But there are reproductive counselors who can help you thru this I used to work for obgyn for 8 years and we had one. I think this will help you heal so you can move on and have children.

  • Joellys Pratts
    Joellys Pratts 20 часов назад

    Desi you are truly my role model and I look up to you so much! You’re one of the strongest people i know and i love you so much ❤️

  • Srta Carla
    Srta Carla 20 часов назад

    Desi, You said that it took you years to see a specialist. let me tell you I live in China for 10 years and when i woman is ready to have children the first thing a woman does here is go to see a specialist to put them on a diet for a whole year before they even try to get pregnant and to check themselves completely to see their nutrients etc. if they don't have access to a doctor believe me their elders know how to eat to have healthy children so they will just take advise from their parents. Their diet is usually really high in fats, lots of eggs a day , fish soups and all kind of animal soups and believe me their stadistics for autism are very low and they seem to be very fertile. after leaving here so many years i adopt their ways and i have a second healthy child. for my third i am getting ready meaning i will go see the doctor to do a complete check up. Desi you represent so many women in america that are going through the same, please be a voice inform about how much a healthy life style will impact their offspring. BTW I m not fat despite a eat very high in fat hahaha i am as skinny as you are with 2 children on my back so dont be afraid about gaining weight. Research WESTON A PRICE on traditional diets around the world. Read his book Nutrition and Physical degeneration you won't regret!!!! He who has ears, let him hear. - Carla

  • Ida Eschricht
    Ida Eschricht 20 часов назад

    Oh honey, had no idea you and Steven or mostly you were struggling with this problem! 😭I’m praying for you and hoping for the best!! 🙏🏼I can see why this is so hard for you! 😘😘You made me so venerable though this video, and you should know I cried with you through the entire video. ❤️AND honestly I’m ready to hug you right though the phone, because I feel like you need a good old big hug❤️
    XX

  • Leeann Nunez
    Leeann Nunez 20 часов назад

    You two will be the most amazing parents one day

  • Olivia J
    Olivia J 20 часов назад

    You are such an incredibly strong, amazing woman. I couldn’t agree you with you more that everything happens for a reason, you are helping so many women with the same struggle by sharing your story with so much emotion and detail. I truly believe you are doing this for a reason, you are helping women cope and relate to the most heartbreaking and difficult issue. Thank you for sharing this ❤️

  • Yanet Andrade
    Yanet Andrade 21 час назад

    Desi, you couldn't have posted this video at a more perfect time! I'm so sorry for your loss, a miscarriage is something traumatic and even though a lot of women go through it, it's not spoken about as often as it should. Thank you for being BRAVE. Thank you for being YOU! You and Steve will be in my prayers. Remember that God's Timing Is Perfect. ❤

  • q8 toota
    q8 toota 21 час назад

    This broke my heart. As a woman who is baby obsessed and dreaming of the day to start a family, my heart goes out to you so much. I put myself in your shoes and the fear I had was overwhelming..let alone actually go through it. Be strong, have faith and stay patient. You are SO much stronger than you think. And that baby will come. I pray that you get a chance to be a beautiful mother and share the exciting news. Just be patient ❤ thank you for sharing this. It was raw and real.

    • q8 toota
      q8 toota 21 час назад

      And don't ever be ashamed. It's gonna happen girl just keep your mind clear and let your body do it's thing in its own time. ❤ we love you!

  • Frankie Wilson
    Frankie Wilson 21 час назад

    Thank you so much for being so open and honest♡sending love and positive energy♡

  • Jessica Araya
    Jessica Araya 21 час назад

    Your so beautiful desi ❤️ when you least expect it you will be pregnant. You are so real its what i love the most about you. But god will send you that blessing when it is your time, i believed that and it happened for me so it will happen for you ❤️❤️

  • EdithIsTheBest90
    EdithIsTheBest90 21 час назад

    Oh desk I tried for 5 years and I finally got my bundle of joy I gave up like you did I stopped trying and I just felt so sad everyone around me was having kids and I was there with no baby but it wasn’t my time now that I see it it wasn’t my time

  • amber love
    amber love 21 час назад

    I love that you did this video I know it has helped a lot of women. You are amazing❤❤❤sending all my love

  • Meghan Szejner
    Meghan Szejner 22 часа назад

    I have pulled myself away from most social media’s due to similar trials and tribulations but I have always made time to watch your videos. Keep putting your passion into your work and in due time all your dreams will come true. Remember there is not one manual for life everyone creates their own magic. Thank you for being such a huge inspiration ❤️❤️

  • Amanda Martell
    Amanda Martell 22 часа назад

    You’ll get a rainbow baby! 🌈🌈❤️❤️

  • Bee Ameen
    Bee Ameen 22 часа назад

    I don’t think you understand how much this video is helping others ❤️ thank you Desi.

  • Cora Dawn
    Cora Dawn 22 часа назад

    You’re a beautiful soul desi. Everything will work out ❤️ you’re strong and it inspires me.

  • Pimpcess Priscilla
    Pimpcess Priscilla 23 часа назад

    this video got me balling my eyes out, a miscarriage is the worst i could relate to you! but dont worry stay strong i love you girl💗

  • Ann ika
    Ann ika 23 часа назад

    I cried so hard with you and it really hurts to see you so upset. I am SO sorry for you, but I know that everything will become good at the right time! Sending lots of love and HOPE from Germany💜

  • Maria Johnson
    Maria Johnson 23 часа назад

    I cried through the whole video. Sending prayers and Love you're way. You're incredibly strong and have a amazing heart .

  • Charlie F.
    Charlie F. День назад

    I'm child-free in that I have personally never wanted children and I mentioned that only because I want you to know how much your video moved me, how much I saw your pain and felt for you, even though I can't relate to what you're going through. There was a real Purity and honesty in how you expressed what you were feeling and for as little as it means coming from a stranger, I hope that you find peace in whatever the outcome is for you and all of this.

  • Lazarevic .J
    Lazarevic .J День назад

    Love you girl💘

  • JOJOARTISTRYY1 V
    JOJOARTISTRYY1 V День назад

    You are so strong and brave and beautiful. Thank you for this video, I am sure you helped so many people not feel alone and I’m sure a lot of people can relate. I was literally balling watching it because before I had my son I was trying as well and I had a miscarriage prior too... because of my epilepsy they told me I’d have a hard time so that scared me even more. I hated it when people would ask me so instead of me saying oh I don’t think I can, I would say “I don’t want kids right now” but deep down inside I did and it hurts but if we say we don’t want it I feel like we tell ourselves it will hurt less if we can’t. Just stay positive and don’t give up. My son is 7 months now and I am so grateful. Idk how you are when it comes to religion but I prayed so much for it. You guys will be in my prayers. Best wishes and much love ❤️

  • zoe m
    zoe m День назад

    I feel for you 😪 if I may suggest for you to go and see kinesiologist if you haven’t already.I was ttc for about a year and then close friend suggested kinesiologist .I was a bit sceptical at the time as I’ve never tried something like that before and didn’t know what to expect ,but I went in with an open mind and it was truly one of the best experiences of my life, I felt as if something has “untangled” and she did tell me that I was all “blocked up” (energetically speaking ) .After only one session I felt this huuuuge relief and a sense of calm and the entire session was non evasive and totally relaxing and I got pregnant literally 2 days after 🙏 I too suffered miscarriage beforehand and I feel your pain ,it is tough on you physically and emotionally but it will get better and I am sure you will have your precious bundle of joy in your arms very soon. Stay strong🙏❤️

  • Allie Lyttle
    Allie Lyttle День назад

    Sending you so much love ❤️

  • Melissa Enriquez
    Melissa Enriquez День назад

    Stay strong beautiful❤️❤️ God has a written plan for everyone and maybe it’s just not your time. I wish you and Steven the best of luck❤️

  • amberranger
    amberranger День назад

    I love you Desi! Stay strong! I'm only 20 and my fear also is what if I can't have kids when I'm ready. It's hard to think about it and I try not to..

  • lyndsayxo
    lyndsayxo День назад

    I really needed this today. I had a miscarriage back in March & someone that’s always wanted a child, it broke my heart. Everyone says “it happens for a reason” & you act like it does but deep down that was your baby.. a part of you that you never got to meet. You probably won’t see this due to all the other comments (which are mostly positive & that’s amazing) but I just want you to know that you made a great impact on me today. Everything you’ve said was exactly how I was feeling & I never knew how to explain it. I hope with all of my soul that one day you will be able to happily announce that amazing news. Until then, I wish you nothing but the best & that goes for everyone reading this as well. Bless you. 💖

  • Natalia Diaz
    Natalia Diaz День назад

    This video broke my heart, you are beautiful and so strong for doing this and i hope you get to start the family you’re dreaming of ❤️❤️

  • Ana Vojinovic
    Ana Vojinovic День назад

    Desi I am from Serbia and here we have a plant called 'virak' or 'vrkuta' and you can make a tea from it. It's a great tea for fertillity,uterus and hormones. It also heps in strengthing the uterus for carring the baby. You should try it. I am drinking it because it makes my periods exact on 28 day and my hormones are perfectly balanced when I'm drinking it. Sorry if my english isn't perfect. Sending you best wishes.

  • Haley Koloski
    Haley Koloski День назад

    You are so amazing Desi. I’m so proud of you, your strength. Thank you for sharing your story.❤️

  • Kenetrice Nichole
    Kenetrice Nichole День назад

    Literally bawling my eyes out. :( Praying for you, Desi and Steven. I had an aunt who struggled with pregnancy for almost 8 years. They had pretty much given up on being able to get pregnant and were beginning the process to adopt. They were a few months into the adoption process when they found out they were pregnant. She didn't expect much because she had miscarried several times before so they continued on with the adoption. She ended up staying pregnant that time and gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. They also went ahead and adopted the baby girl they had been wanting and planning to adopt before that. So, I was lucky enough to get two babygirl cousins (one by blood, both by love and bond). Sending ya'll love and well wishes. I really hope this helps people to see how their pregnancy questions could hurt someone. It's like adding salt to a wound.

  • hayley o'grady
    hayley o'grady День назад

    I love you Desi❤️ praying for good blessings to come your way❤️

  • Sarah Tustin
    Sarah Tustin День назад

    That was perfect, Desi. Thank you so much for sharing your story again. You are brave and you are loved. Some day this will make sense and your determination will not be in vein. But no matter what Steven will be there for you, and you will always have each other.

  • Lorna Curry
    Lorna Curry День назад

    Desi!! You are absolutely amazing!! Such a brave heartfelt video. You are never alone. No one is!! Enjoy life.. and as you say everything happens for a reason!! Sending you a huge hug all the way from the uk!! 💜😘💜 xx

  • Miss Evelynn
    Miss Evelynn День назад

    You are so strong Des i♥ Im sending the both of you my love and good energy.

  • Maisie Lee
    Maisie Lee День назад

    💖💖💖

  • Yvette Cervera
    Yvette Cervera День назад

    I LOVE YOU DESI!!! Sending so much love to you!!!!

  • BRENDA g Santos
    BRENDA g Santos День назад

    Aww desi watching your video had me in tears I understand how you feel from my own experience I had two miscarriages and I couldn’t get pregnant for many years and I also asked god why and went to many doctors and they couldn’t figure why I couldn’t get pregnant I prayed for a blessing and when I least expected it I got pregnant it was a stressful 39 weeks since I was high risk I was always so scared and paranoid but everything went perfect I just had my healthy baby boy 3 weeks ago and I couldn’t be any happier all I can tell you is it will happen to you Gods timing is always right and he will bless you and your family one day god bless you and your family

  • Tiarra Cross
    Tiarra Cross День назад

    Desi, wow 💜 I have no words to how much you’ve touched me in this video. The level of vulnerability you’re able to show with not only your subscribers but the world is more than amazing, I am speechless at your strength. I am sending you so much love and prayers that you will find peace within this situation. I love hearing how supportive Steven is to you, it warms my heart that you have someone there for you who is on your side like he is. The love you two share for each other is something I hope for in a future relationship. Thank you for sharing your experience, strength and love with us. Love goes out to you ✨💜

  • AgapeLove
    AgapeLove День назад

    I feel your pain. I had 2 miscarriages and a molar pregnancy like yours. I am Currently miscarrying my 3rd pregnancy. I just came back from doctor to confirm :( i cant believe i go on youtube and i see this and decide to click and watch. i feel you. hugs desi!

  • annabelle erickson
    annabelle erickson День назад

    Plastic face.

  • Percida Iraheta
    Percida Iraheta День назад

    Desi you made me tear up for sure 😢 Stay positive, calm and don’t over think it..it will happen for you guys. (Air hug 🤗)

  • Carolyn Thomas
    Carolyn Thomas День назад

    Around 5 years ago, my mum got pregnant and lost a little girl. That was really tough on my family because it caused us all mental pain but my mum also became unwell because of it. She has only just been able to talk to my sister and i about it but she still struggles to talk to us about it properly. I want you to know im with you and understand what you're going through. There are many women out there who are going through the same thing as you. I'm sure it will happen when the time is right xx

  • Karen Deegee
    Karen Deegee День назад

    Sending you hugs ❤️ I want to be a surrogate mother one day ❤️ I have two children of my own & I am personally done but i know this could be a struggle for women & I want to lend a hand ❤️ I pray you get your little one soon. One day, whenever! & you will. Whatever you went thru (going thru) is going to feel like NOTHING when you get your blessing, you just wait ❤️

  • Inessa Dukmanova
    Inessa Dukmanova День назад

    You are so strong! I will pray for you. Never give up! 😘😘😘