• Опубликовано: 10 июл 2018
  • This is a long one....but it all needed to be said. I hope this video helps anyone that's going through something similar, and to know that you're not alone. I also hope this video educates anyone who doesn't know how pregnancy questions could affect someone who's dealt or dealing with a stillbirth, miscarriages, infertility & any other pregnancy complications.
    Extending all my love to all of those who are suffering. Know that I'm here with you ❤️
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Комментарии • 29 753

  • Drea M
    Drea M 10 часов назад +1

    God will bless you with a baby 👶🏼💕

  • Amie Weisg
    Amie Weisg 21 час назад

    Sending so much love your way Desi. Thank you for sharing your story.

  • Clarissa Solano
    Clarissa Solano День назад

    You’re so brave ❤️ I cried the whole video, it will happen for you 🙏🏻

  • jessica
    jessica День назад

    why do you talk like that

  • Marjolaine Daudrumez
    Marjolaine Daudrumez 2 дня назад

    That was heartbreaking. I hope all your dreams will come true ❤️❤️❤️

  • Zoraida Magana
    Zoraida Magana 2 дня назад

    I cried the whole video. I'm sorry Desi, you deserve all the happiness in the world.

  • Minandi Heski
    Minandi Heski 2 дня назад


  • AlejandraMMartinez
    AlejandraMMartinez 2 дня назад

    Desi, it took me 6 years after my first. We kept trying and when I finally gave up I found out I was pregnant so don’t give up. God will bless you with a baby when the time is right. I will pray for you.

  • Graciela Hambek
    Graciela Hambek 3 дня назад

    This is so heartbreaking, it’s difficult for me to talk about my miscarriages. I’ve had 3 of them. You’re right no one talks about them and yet so many have gone through it. Stay strong! Prayers for you & your husband. ♥️♥️♥️

  • kaisa mcgee
    kaisa mcgee 5 дней назад

    We were told by our doctors that there would be no way for us to have a baby. We tried IVF and were not successful. We thought it wasn't going to happen then out of the blue we got pregnant with a perfect baby boy. I think sometimes things happen for a reason it was hard we tried for 6 years.

  • Miri myMiri
    Miri myMiri 6 дней назад

    today someone ask me at work why I don't have children, and I told him I'm trying, then he told me "so, who is the one with the fertility issues is it you or your husband?" , it was very rude 😯

  • Michi Ticas
    Michi Ticas 6 дней назад

    Omg crying 😭😭😭 love you dedo! I hope this happens for you guys ❤️

  • BOC
    BOC 6 дней назад

    My husband and I tried then “didn’t try” same thing, I secretly was still thinking about it when we weren’t... and almost 2 years went by negative test after negative test... the most discouraging thing ever. I got to the point where I was “okay with it just being us” I’m so sorry you are going through this. My heart is broken for you. You will figure out your path, I promise. 💕

  • Lorena Bustos
    Lorena Bustos 8 дней назад

    Desi I am so sorry you are going through this, you are such great woman, example and human being! I love you! one day this will come a reality you'll see, you guys will be the greatest parents. Much love!

  • Kait Armerding
    Kait Armerding 8 дней назад

    I went through a miscarriage as well. I was pregnant the same time as my best friend, we were a week apart. We took each other to dinner to tell each other and were both so excited. She went on with her pregnancy and we went to our first appointment and there was no heartbeat. It was devastating. I’m so sorry for your struggles. You’re definitely not alone. 🖤

  • Olga Hidalgo
    Olga Hidalgo 9 дней назад

    Sending to you all muy love 😘

  • Shode321
    Shode321 9 дней назад

    For women/couples in general, don't wait to get ALL the tests possible. It will save a lot of grief to know what you're dealing with and maybe get the problem sorted or if it can't be sorted then working around it to get pregnant/start a family in ways that WILL work. I wish you the best of luck Desi, you're not alone in this struggle x

  • Renee Craddock
    Renee Craddock 10 дней назад

    Don't lose faith I suffered with infertility for years but I finally had twins so never give up .God is good he has a plan for you

  • Chiara D.F.
    Chiara D.F. 10 дней назад


  • Meriame Bensaid
    Meriame Bensaid 10 дней назад

    I wish you all the best Desi you really deserve to be a mom and you will be a great mom

  • Jaclynn Gage
    Jaclynn Gage 11 дней назад

    I’m so sorry desi. I understand how heartbreaking it is to have your only dream to have a family and be a mom and not being able to get pregnant. God just didn’t have that plan for me. I hope one day you’re blessed with a child even if it’s not physically yours. God bless you and Steven.

  • Rebecca Hite
    Rebecca Hite 12 дней назад

    I Ask That God Shine On You! Shine On You! Shine On You! In JESUS Name!!! God is Using RUclip as a Prayer Chain For You!!! He Is Comforting You Right Now!!! ❤

  • Rebecca Hite
    Rebecca Hite 12 дней назад

    I Agree with Lorissa Turner! We are Praying for You! All of Us who saw this. That God will move all darkness out of the Way and Open Your Womb! We Love You and Thank you for being Brave! Your Tutorial Just Opened Hearts to Lift You Up Before God, Who is Listening! He Has Not Rejected You or Forgotten You. He is Listening. An Answer Will Come.

  • Zeynep Kırçuval
    Zeynep Kırçuval 12 дней назад

    Desi I hope you read this, I am a subscriber from Turkey. What you’re going through is despite being very difficult is very common. My mother always wanted to have kids but it was very hard for her. She had tried for 5 years and she had 6 miss carriages. I am her 7th try, my parents feel very grateful and blessed to have me. They call me their miracle due to the difficulties they had. She tried twice after me but unfortunately they were miss carriages as well. Miracles can and do happen. It was very easy for my mom to get pregnant but she lost them within the first months, I know that’s not the case for you but you are NOT alone. I hope that you never give up and always keep trying. I know that you WILL be pregnant, I believe in you never loose your hope. ❤️❤️❤️

  • Ellie Acunzo
    Ellie Acunzo 12 дней назад

    It will happen in time in Desi ❤️❤️❤️

  • Nancy Martinez
    Nancy Martinez 12 дней назад

    Sometimes with fertility treatment, you can even end up with twins 👶🏻👶🏻

  • amber roberts
    amber roberts 13 дней назад

    Just keep thanking God EVERYDAY and when you see a child for your baby! He’ll give you the desires of your heart!! Ur going to be a mother so soon in Jesus name! Amen! Receive it!! It’s yours!!

  • ALove Hepburn
    ALove Hepburn 13 дней назад

    Desi I promise I will pray for you and your husband!

  • Monique Roper
    Monique Roper 13 дней назад +1

    Thank you. Thank you for posting this. I suffered from a miscarriage recently and have had issues with my fertility ever since. I’ve been feeling depressed and less feminine lately due to all the issues. I keep coming back to this video and feeling like I have a friend who can actually relate to me. Thank you.

  • Becky Berg
    Becky Berg 14 дней назад

    So brave to tell your story. Thank you! Can't wait to watch the video when you announce to all of us that you are expecting. Hang in there.

  • Erika D
    Erika D 14 дней назад

    Everybody here loves and supports you. Steven, your brother, your mom, and your whole family. You are not a disappointment to anybody who matters. You are human and a woman, and this struggle is making you stronger and more compassionate. "Man's Search for Meaning" by Viktor Frankl is a book that helped me through my deepest low. It is a short, but incredibly strengthening book. I do agree with you that there is a reason behind everything and I, for one, am so proud of you for thinking outside your own pain and empathizing with others in your position. You are so beautiful and brave for exhibiting such vulnerability and strength. All the love, from Kentucky.

  • Ellie Stannero
    Ellie Stannero 14 дней назад

    I haven't finished watching the video by the time I'm typing this, tbh I'm only 21, but for some unknown weird reason I am scared I might not be able to ever have kids. And I would really want to be a mom when the right time comes ( not that I am rushing or anything ). This is what my gut tells me.
    I haven't got the courage to watch this til now, because I read the description beforehand...

  • Snapsonfools
    Snapsonfools 14 дней назад

    I also went to a specialist before my 1st daughter was born because I thought that I was "broken" I can relate to what you're saying so much about taking test after test hoping its positive then it's not. Honestly it wasnt until I "gave up" like you that we got pregnant. God will give you exactly what you need when you need it... usually when you least expect it.

  • Jasmine
    Jasmine 15 дней назад

    Wow I really didn't think it would be this hard to watch this video, I've gone through a miscarriage. It is horrible and I felt like it was me, like something was wrong with me. I started to learn that sometimes it just happens. Thank you for sharing this, it's not just a video this is raw and real life not everyone can do that ❤

  • MicheMoffatt #BaldBarbie MiMo Wigs
    MicheMoffatt #BaldBarbie MiMo Wigs 15 дней назад

    You’re so wonderful to speak so openly about such a personal issue, and I know you are helping so many people out there with similar hard times and struggles. It must be so hard to have people constantly ask when you’re having a baby, and I think you have handled this so well. You’re a beautiful girl inside and out, and you’re both a fantastic couple. Im sure this video is going to touch so many lives worldwide - thanks for being so inspirational x x x x

    ELY MAYA 15 дней назад

    Love you guys!

  • Twin Power Media
    Twin Power Media 15 дней назад

    God has a plan for everyone and I have no doubts you and Steven will have a baby when you are supposed to. Let go and surrender and this will lift a burden off your chests. Trust and believe and move on with your life and be happy!

  • Cristiana Inacio
    Cristiana Inacio 16 дней назад

    Just a 14 year old crying over this video, I love Desi, I hope god blesses her with a baby.

  • Rebekah Wynne
    Rebekah Wynne 16 дней назад

    Have you read the secret?

  • Rebekah Wynne
    Rebekah Wynne 16 дней назад


  • Deanna Newman
    Deanna Newman 16 дней назад

    The strength you have just for putting this out there is so amazing Desi. Please know you are never obligated to share something so hard for you, but I'm so glad ur so open with your audience. Prayers for you and Steven girl. ❤❤

  • Deanna Newman
    Deanna Newman 16 дней назад

    I love how strong Desi and Steven's bond is. Love and respect to both of you girl. ❤❤

  • M.l M.
    M.l M. 18 дней назад

    I applaud you for telling your story and having the courage to come forward and speak about your pain to all of your subscribers. While you speak of your struggles you ARE helping someone who is going through something similar as you are and without even knowing you are helping them by providing them some form of comfort. Leave it in God’s Hands and Always have Faith. God works in Mysterious Ways. Best of Luck in your journey, you have many many people right by your side never feel alone.

  • Maire Berger
    Maire Berger 18 дней назад

    You’re are such an amazing person; I’ve been following you for so many years and truly never knew your pain. I was looking for a tutorial today and stumbled across this and am so glad i did. You and Steven are so blessed and i know god will bless you any way he can. YOU will be an amazing mother when the time comes. Keep your faith desi and always know how loved you truly are.

  • Sabrina Gutierrez
    Sabrina Gutierrez 18 дней назад

    Lifted you up in prayer 🙏🏼 God knows your hearts desires. In his perfect timing you will be a mom & have a beautiful family❤️

  • Leah Baker
    Leah Baker 19 дней назад

    This made me cry for many reasons. Keep your head up beautiful. Timing is EVERYTHING. What's meant to be will be and do not lose hope. I will pray for you and Steven to be blessed with a baby. Your such an inspiration.... stay strong stay positive and keep your head up.

  • Iram Vora
    Iram Vora 19 дней назад

    i totally get were you re coming from. me and my husband are trying to get pregnant for a year now and every time i feel something different with my body i feel like m pregnant and i take the test and its negative and its sooooooooo heart breaking and discouraging. All i can say after watching tis video is that i m not alone!!! If its meant to happen it ll happen. m gonna pray for both of us and thank you so much for sharing this.

  • Lori Etheridge
    Lori Etheridge 19 дней назад

    You are not alone my love!!!! My heart feels the same pain. We will be amazing Mother's one day! God bless you

  • manuela gomez-rhodes
    manuela gomez-rhodes 19 дней назад

    Release and manifest! So proud of you! We’re all sending you positive, loving energy ❤️❤️✨✨

  • Haley Chacon
    Haley Chacon 20 дней назад

    I chucked it all and just grabbed a makeup wipe. Desi. Honey. I feel for you. It's not something I have been through but I'm in tears anyways. Much love.

  • Ana Mazurek
    Ana Mazurek 20 дней назад

    Thank you for making this. Definitely made me feel like I am not alone and that the way I feel isn’t so crazy.

  • Kaylaa Corrigan-Castillo
    Kaylaa Corrigan-Castillo 20 дней назад

    I'm so sorry, I wish I could give you a hug! 💖

  • Paula
    Paula 20 дней назад


  • Gaye Williams
    Gaye Williams 21 день назад

    Please don't give up it took my husband and I 7 years to have my Son, sadly 4 years later I got pregnant again and my second son was born with a hypoplastic left heart , I was born with congenital heart disease, and I passed on the gene, but he passed away a few days later, unfortunately we then found out my disease means one in 3 of my children will be born like t that, so it was too risky to try again. However I just thank god daily for my beautiful son who I had first who thankfully doesn't have that gene and is very very healthy, please stay positive, my son took 7 years before he was born I had 4 miscarriages and an ectopic pregnancy, possibly because they had my genetics and had heart disease??? I will never ever know, when you do have babies you will be a wonderful wonderful Mother and your hubby will be a fantastic dad. Your get there I know it , if you really really want something it happens after sex lie with your legs up the wall and a pillow under your bum worked with both my boys and 3 of 4 miscarriages have ago xxxxxxxxx

  • Chessia Brown
    Chessia Brown 21 день назад

    I'm 37 and suffering with infertility as well. Some days I'm so tough and positive, and other days it eats me alive. I'm racing the clock and that adds more stress. I have faith that God knows the desires of our hearts, and sometimes I fall in my faith when it seems every girl around me is getting pregnant. It hurts. I dread going to the doctor because all the women there are pregnant and so many of them seem to take it for granted. I have a huge box filled with negative pregnancy tests, because when my angel finally gets here I want to look back and know all these tears and the disappointment were worth it. NEVER GIVE UP. Even in the days you feel completely hopeless, you are not alone....God bless you. Sending heaps of love and baby dust your way!!!!❤❤❤❤❤

  • gabrielarr328
    gabrielarr328 21 день назад

    My heart is with you 🙂🙏🏼❤️

  • Samantha Lowe
    Samantha Lowe 22 дня назад

    I’ve lost 2 babies in a row.. it never gets easier. I’m pregnant now for a 3rd time and everything is perfect so far! I’m 16 weeks 😊🙏🏼

  • Kyra Liu
    Kyra Liu 22 дня назад

    why is it that everyone's burning question for a female is when she's going to be pregnant? it's a pretty personal question that random people shouldn't ask someone they don't know personally

  • Carolina Arias
    Carolina Arias 22 дня назад

    I declare that you will have a girl this year.

  • Gee
    Gee 23 дня назад


  • Alma Handžić
    Alma Handžić 23 дня назад

    I had a misscarriage a few years ago. And I struggled to get pregnant again. I was not having any health problems, but I was devistated and depressed and I have created problems in my head and passed them to my husband who started having problems with erection. I do not how we in all that mess managed to say to each other, relax, do not think about it, and get me pregnant again. We now have a beautiful girl and thinking about second baby, brings me back to the same place and I do not know how am I gonna go through all that agsin. But what I want to tell you, do not lose hope ever!!! God will bless you two with a baby because you are good people and you deserve all the best!!!!! A lot of people in my country I struggling with pregnancy issuies and it is probably because we went through a four years of war and that stressfull period, so they are getting mostly babies through IVF. Have you though about that option? I know people who had through 9 misscarrieges. I think I would loose it, I so admire those ladies. I guess the wish to be a mother does not stop and should not stop especially at thia time when we have solution for everything! So you WILL get pregnant and you WILL have your baby! Do not stop trying ever! Sending you love from Bosnia! Hate to see your beautiful face covered with tears 💔

  • Gursimran Lakhanpal
    Gursimran Lakhanpal 24 дня назад

    😪😪😪 you deserve a football team of babies desi, forever keeping you’re family in my prayers

  • Sarah M.
    Sarah M. 24 дня назад

    When you mentioned your friend, i felt guilty all over again.... that i had my baby w/o complications. My friend got pregnant when i was 8 months along. The same week my daughter was born, she told me that her baby was gone. I would have done anything to prevent that. I emailed her baby a couple weeks prior saying things like "i heard you've been feeling sick. We need you to hang in there because you are so loved and we cant wait to meet you"... I look forward to meeting her baby in Paradise. And i know you can't wait to have your baby back, too. God promises that he will undo all death and give us back our loved ones. (John 5:28,29).... all of the children who couldn't hang in there are no different. A life is a life. And God values all life, esp the little ones :) My heart goes out to you Desi. and i hope your dream of having your family sees fulfillment soon.
    Sending my love . . . and reminding you that God heals our broken hearts. Psalm 147:3 "He heals the brokenhearted; He binds up their wounds."

    TRALALITSA K 24 дня назад

    4 years trying for a baby and not going to doctor having exams is too much honey.. .Women need to visit doctor after 6 months or 1 year if they are very young. You should go earlier because when ages pass things are worse and more difficult . You should make all nececery exams and start medication. Dont loose any more time please!! Feeling bad and crying does not help, makes you worse. Nobody should ask these kind of questions.Wish you a baby the soonest possible!

      TRALALITSA K 5 дней назад

      +KennedyShae MUA it seems that you havent watched the whole video. The have visited RECENTLY a doctor...after they have been trying for years ...Doctors advice visiting a doctor 6months after trying if you are older and 1 year if you are very young.

    • KennedyShae MUA
      KennedyShae MUA 5 дней назад

      If you would’ve listened to the whole video before offering up your ignorant opinion you would’ve realize that her and her husband have ALREADY went to the doctor and have had testing done.

      TRALALITSA K 5 дней назад

      +KennedyShae MUA Your opinion..Disgusting is when people ask.her when she is going to have a baby or of she is pregnant....not when somebody advices her to.visit a doctor the soonest possible..

    • KennedyShae MUA
      KennedyShae MUA 5 дней назад

      Again, disgusting.

  • Reem Ss
    Reem Ss 24 дня назад

    يا رب ترزقهم و ترزق كل محروم ♥️🙏🏻

  • Suerieya Sey
    Suerieya Sey 25 дней назад

    Be strong desi! Your time will come God will bless you with a baby at the perfect time. You and Steven are such a beautiful couple. Stay strong and stay positive! I love you

  • Neesie L
    Neesie L 25 дней назад

    Praying for you, myself and anyone else dealing with this 👏🏼

  • maria luna
    maria luna 25 дней назад

    Desi, you got me crying. You are truly an inspiration of a strong woman! And I’m sure you’ve helped someone. U helped me be appreciative of the kiddos I do have. And God bless you

  • Aroha Gaia
    Aroha Gaia 25 дней назад

    You will be a mum soon, I see that. Allow it to be and it will. 🙏🏼♥️

  • Kyleigh Jepson
    Kyleigh Jepson 26 дней назад

    God doesn’t give us anything we can’t handle .

  • Hannah Karimi
    Hannah Karimi 26 дней назад


  • Missprivina xoxoxo
    Missprivina xoxoxo 26 дней назад

    I cried for her and I hope that she will be pregnant one day !

  • Hope Badten
    Hope Badten 26 дней назад

    Seeing this video has made me feel better in a way that I don't feel alone thank you so much for sharing this I know it probably wasn't easy at all...

  • Hope Badten
    Hope Badten 26 дней назад

    2 miscarriages. I believe that everything happens for a reason as well.

  • Yordaliza Checo
    Yordaliza Checo 26 дней назад

    I know this is a serious video butttt is anyone noticing the dog licking the bed in the beginning of the video lmao

  • Meredith MOHLER
    Meredith MOHLER 27 дней назад


  • ateCheca
    ateCheca 27 дней назад

    my gosh. This video was so scary and heartbreaking at the same time.
    Me & my boyfriend haven't tried to get pregnant, but I am in a steady relationship for quiet some time now, and we have both talked about starting a family and having babies, even our mothers wants grandkids also. And I am just terrified. What if I can't have babies, like something is wrong with me. I can't seem to go to the doctor to get a checkup because I'm so afraid if the results will be negative and I would be heartbroken and my life would be over. It's so scary, I sometimes can't sleep at night when my mind is just wild from thinking about it...
    I Pray that you and Steven will be blessed with children in the nearest future! You're a strong woman to share this with us. Thank you Desi.

  • Lizbeth Gonzalez
    Lizbeth Gonzalez 27 дней назад

    Never say you lost your baby because you weren’t ready to be a mom ... I struggled for years trying to have a baby I cried and prayed to have a baby , I got frustrated with myself I thought I couldn’t have babies , I stopped trying and blaming myself ... But now I have my beautiful 3 month babygirl and girl I wasn’t ready Iam still not ready but Iam learning everyday how to be a mom . God has his plans for us and in perfect timing you’ll have your babies

  • Mentyy2233
    Mentyy2233 27 дней назад +2

    You, Alejandra (La Chula), Dulce Candy, Yasmin Valeyas (beauty bird),and Karely (KarelyVlogs) should have a coffee date!!! All of you are going through very similar situations,yet so different. ❤️🙏🏻

  • Claudia Wang
    Claudia Wang 28 дней назад

    I have a friend who battled infertility 8 years and she pretty much gave up when God blessed her with a child and she just had her second baby this week and I’m not sure what God’s plan is for you, beautiful girl, but trust in Him and keep your head up. I have a friend who’s been trying to get pregnant for years and she’s my doula and I struggle to not feel guilty to have her help me deliver my baby because I want with all my heart that maybe it would be her instead of me but she said it’s alright and we are on different paths in life and I sincerely pray you get blessed with a family whether that looks like a biological baby or an adopted child who needs a loving home. I will be praying for you so much!!! xoxo 💋

  • Claudia Wang
    Claudia Wang 28 дней назад

    Lord Jesus, this breaks my heart as I am pregnant with my second baby and I don’t know what it is like to go through something like this. I pray you are able to have peace and comfort and that God would embrace you with His love and purpose and that you and your husband would be blessed by the Lord in your life and continue to be the outgoing lovely person you are. Stay strong. xoxo 💋

  • Sherry Wagih
    Sherry Wagih 28 дней назад

    Breaks my heart to see you cry. I feel for you and often talking about our issues out loud really helps us reflect on our thoughts and feelings, so well done. I pray for you that you encounter some good news soon Inshallah. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason my dear, and it will happen when the time is right. God bless you and Steven xxx

  • Tanya Calderon
    Tanya Calderon 28 дней назад

    Praying for you guys. God is amazing and He will bless you guys.

  • hinnyQ
    hinnyQ 28 дней назад

    You may or may not even get a chance to read this comment. But, I felt a sense of guilt watching your video. Not because I have asked your or anyone else in real life why they dont have children, but because I already have two kids (age 14 months and 2.5 yrs). I work full time outside of the home and mostly have to care for my kids as my husband works the swing shift and goes to school full time. It gets very overwhelming and stressful and most days I beg for a vacation away from them or try to find ways for my mom or siblings to help watch them. More recently, I had a pregnancy scare- a really real one- I took a pregnancy test which came back positive and I literally was so sad and depressed because I was using precautions and still I thought, HOW?!?! I was on the verge of waking up the next morning and calling into my doctor to terminate the pregnancy b/c I knew me and my husband couldn't handle a 3rd right now- or maybe ever. But, later that day- I somehow either had a miscarriage or my period came.I felt so much relief and now it makes me really sad to actually see someone so financially successful and thriving in her career- want what I took for granted. I am sorry you are having problems getting pregnant and I am sorry that you had to experience the lost of something that was going to bring you joy, but keep faith and know that when God deems, it will be.

  • Stefani Feole Venatta
    Stefani Feole Venatta 28 дней назад

    I love you!!! God will bless you with a child one day and it'll happen at the best time for you and your husband in your lives. You'll be the best mom! Don't lose hope!

  • Yazo0o7F
    Yazo0o7F 28 дней назад

    Have you done ultrasound, semen analysis, hormone tests... have u tried IVF? Go for it and hope that God can give you what u want to be happy

  • Rossana Evaristo
    Rossana Evaristo 28 дней назад

    Be strong Desi. Your blessing soon will come.

  • jd
    jd 28 дней назад

    This video breaks my heart. You are so brave and strong, I want you both to know that. I look up to people like you! You are full of love and I hope all these positive words from the other people who already commented make you realize that and feel you better. You will be gifted with kids and a happy family. I send you a lot of love and wish you all the best!

  • Yasmine Nasri
    Yasmine Nasri 28 дней назад

    Thank you for this

  • Sadies Houle
    Sadies Houle 29 дней назад

    This video really hit close to home..
    However I was fortunate enough to have experienced pregnancy and giving birth and no one can ever take that away from me.. I was 17. The father gave me an ultimatum “me or the baby” I chose my baby. Then I had the opportunity to give her to someone who could give her the life I couldn’t. No matter how badly I wanted to keep her. I’ve always had strong maternal instincts. I’ve had to take care of my younger siblings at age 12 because all of the adults were drunk or passed out and drugged up.. I’ve taken care of baby cousins, nieces and nephews. So I so badly wanted to be mom when I had the chance.. but I had to be selfless for this precious life. I had to give her the best life even if I wasn’t personally giving it to her.
    I had some complications though during birth and labour. She got stuck in the canal and when she finally got out she’s healthy and alive thank God ❤️ unfortunately I lost a lot of blood and I had some other complications that now I may never have to chance to have another baby.. I know that feeling, when you psyche yourself out into believing that you’re pregnant then feeling disappointed when you’re not.. it’s heartbreaking. My biggest dream is to have a baby and to experience it with the love of my life.. but I’m still young so I try to tell myself that it’ll happen when it’s meant to. When I’m ready. I still believe it but there’s that little part of me that’s afraid it’ll never happen..

  • The Youngs
    The Youngs 29 дней назад

    I am so sorry you have gone through this. Praying God's strength and comfort for you. I will say there are some women who go through this and then go on a ketogenic diet and get pregnant. Whatever path you choose, know that love will always be with you.

  • Laura D
    Laura D 29 дней назад

    I am terrified I will have these same problems as my mum and dad tried for me for 10 years. The doctors told them they would never have kids....and then along I came!!! followed a couple years later by my little brother!. Never give hope hope Desi. You are an inspiration girl 😘xxxx

  • Sonia Sarwar Lina
    Sonia Sarwar Lina Месяц назад

    A big tight hug from a sister and lots of dua for you..Insha’allah you will be a mom very soon :)

  • Agi Laan
    Agi Laan Месяц назад +1

    I got a miscarriage in 9 weeks of my pregnancy (5 of my friends were pregnant at that time) ..... this pain of disappointment was indescribable
    I did not want to try anymore . and suddenly after a few years, a wonderful daughter appeared in the world.
    I wish you a lot of strength and faith in the future... for sure and you are to have your own little life a tiny miracle 💝💝

  • Gaby Acevedo
    Gaby Acevedo Месяц назад

    OMG! I'm crying so much right now! God bless her, bless her marriage, bless her body, bless her future family💙 You are such an amazing person, who inspires and motivates so much people! You'll be amazing parents, I know that for sure💙💙💙

  • Karen Diaz
    Karen Diaz Месяц назад

    God has a plan. My husband and I tried for 10 years and went through 3 miscarriages before our daughter was born. She goes off to college next month. I pray for you and your husband. We nearly divorced over the depression that resulted from the first miscarriage. I'm sorry for you but I believe your path will be revealed to you. Good luck and God bless!

  • AnneLien1987
    AnneLien1987 Месяц назад

    We have been trying for 4,5years. We gave up. We will never have children and that's OK now. We are happy together. We enjoy every moment together. I hope you'll find peace too. Try to live your life with your husband. It is still the most important thing ever. I was depressed too and cried everyday. Now I am happy again and you will too. Bless you.

  • Charlotte Vanessa
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  • Yolima Mont
    Yolima Mont Месяц назад

    of course no one would like to have a miscarriage girly, aww desi you will have an opportunity to be a mom dont loose hope! wow the video clip made me cry!

  • Shelby D
    Shelby D Месяц назад

    Desi, I've always respected you and have loved your videos and I must say that after watching this I've gained an inevitable amount of respect for you. You're so strong and such a kind kind kind soul. I hope it happens for you soon because you deserve it you are going to be an amazing mom one day. You have such amazing morals and it's so refreshing to hear you talk about what you believe in. You got this girl stay strong and stay beautiful ❤️❤️